Monday, July 7, 2008

Emo-ed

EMO....

Well, emo.Suicidal or just fashion? Well, thats what people usually think when they hear that.

Well, however, this entry will be an emo one, showing another side of me, my sadness, so if you guys dun wish to see this, i suggest for you not to read it. Well, most of you have seen the bubbly side of me. Rarely people see this side of me, but of course its natural, everyone have this feelin in them, its weather thay show it or not.

Well, as mentioned on the earlier post, we went out for movie outing! Bus trip was freaking long, so everyone ended up sleeping, everyone except me that is. A lot of things were on my mind. Responsibilities, pressure and bonds with others. Well, here is abit that im gona share.

Hmm, well this happens to someone close to me, and trust me it affects me. Its a fren of mine, but those who reali knoe me, you will knoe what im reali talking about. Well, he shared his life experience wif me, so here goes.....

Started out veri close, were strangers, became frens, then couple. A veri happy couple i would say. They believed in love, were even planning bout the future. So the honeymoon period lasted for five months. It was truly a memorable experience for them. Learned alot i would say, and the memories they had, are all now in a heart shape box.

Well, happiness slowly changed. After that happy period, his girl fell for another guy. A foriegner, her veri own workplace. Well, he didnt knoe that at first, but he managed to find out. Well, the girl wanted to go sentosa wif him. The guy thought it was weird, but since the foreigner was leaving for his country, why not jus let it be.

Guess what, it was all a mistake. The guy should have stop her, but its too late since its past but, its a mistake he will neva forget. The girl began to made a book for him, so as her boyfren, he became jealous. Sad to say, his predictions became true, they did fell for each other. However, as the day he was leaving approach, the girl realise that the guy was like a playboy. She was cheated, he had another girl, the same workplace too.

Somehow, both of them were at a lost. Everybody decided to jus bid him farewell for the last time, that includes the guy. Many emotions were felt at that scene, many tears were shed. Well, after that incident, a normal guy would jus break up wif his gal, even advised by frens, but he gave her a second chance. She was cheated, and though the guy was crushed, he wanted to help her, and so they continued with their relationship.

Well, but it was a veri unstable one. A trust is not easy to earn once u lost it, and honestly, i think its the main factor in a relationship. So, many arguements occured and there were not many happy moments shared, i doubt he reali remembered what happiness they shared after that.However, i do agree there were chances of a better relationship.

Then, after a awhile, there was this major camp in school. The guy, jus like me, love goin to camps. He went for the camp for a week, and wanted to reunite with his girlfren after that, but guess what, he was crushed even more. She told him she loved the freedom, she missed the feelin of being single, and her feelings for him was not strong, it was goin down.

The guy couldnt believe what she said. He didnt believe in love animore, there were too many betrayals in the relationship, so slowly both ofthem started fading out from each others life. Honestly, that was the major turning point. Days later, the girl regreted saying this, but for the guy, how was he suppose to carry on with life? If she could not wait for him for a week, what would happen if he were to serve his Ns, i dun tink they will last. He did not have faith in the girl animore.Well, he thought jus let the relationship carry on and see what nature tells him.

Well, Exams came and she didnt spent tyme with his boyfren. Well, mayb she reali need to study, so the guy didnt dare distract him, After that, immediately she went on a holiday. So there goes, 2 weeks of not seeing each other. He misses her, but when she came back, well that was one they broke off. She sounded juz like when he came back from camp, as if history was repeating itself, was it happening again? he didnt felt animore love, and thought this was the best timimng for the break up. Also, by then they had way too much differences, and almost wateva they did would affect one another.They were hurt by each others action, he could no longer take the pain.

They talked things out nicely, and thought they broke off on good terms, but guess what. They were almost no form of communication and started avoiding one another. Both of them were like strangers, as if they didnt knoe each other, no mayb even worse. This fren of mine, he is veri sociable, put him in a room full of strangers and he will jus start making frens with them. This girl, he couldnt even bond with her animore. Did he do the wrong thing, was it a wrong decision for the break up? Well, after thinking bout it for so long, nope, he decided to jus let wateva that has had hapen to be the way it is. He put in effort in mending the friendship, but he has given up. Let things be done naturally, wateva that will hapen, so be it. He has given up.



Based on a true life, it may sound veri dramatic, but its real. I reali pity him, went thru so much, but in the end he juz ended up not believing in love, betrayal and so on. Rite now, the onli thing i knoe is that he is hurt, and he is not at peace, i duno why, but i guess he has to move on.

Well, jus to tell you guys that this post was one sided, i onli knoe the guy side of view, so obviously it was biased. For me to knoe the girl side, well that would be imposible, so if the girl is reading this blog, im sori about that. Im not blaming you for aniting, and im not expecting aniting from yea, i jus wanted to express myself and remember it, and there was no better place than my own blog, im sori...

Well, this post was not meant to hurt anione, nor do i seek sympathy, this is my blog, so its personal, i was jus expressing myself, expressing the emptiness inside of me.....

Posted by Shah at 11:04 PM